I can’t help but be so god damn SHY!#$%^&* Almost everyday really cute surfers come into my work and uhdgushdfuh I just want to jump on them„„„ They have perfect smiles, perfect blonde hair, perfect eyes and laughs and voices and names and they’re honestly just BEAUTIFUL. Like, I tihnk I have an addiction to these beautiful surf gods…I already know I’m attraced to blondes, but I think growing up around surfers my entire life just doesn’t help….But when they come in, I just get so shy and want to go hide under a table and my hand gets all shaky when I need to take their order and they just stare at me with their perfect eyes and I can’t look at them because I would get this big huge dorky smile on my face and they would think I’m weird. And my coworkers keep telling me to just give them my number on a napkin, like just write it down and say “here’s some napkins for you guys” but I’d pee my pants so I’m going to be forever single because I don’t have enough confidence to talk t o a BOY..they always ocme in big groups and HOW am I supposed to just pick ONE to talk to??!#$%^? THEY’RE ALL SO GOOD LOOKING..I need to be confident but I’m not. okay, going to go cry beccause I’ll never get to date/marry my perfect surfer man because I’m an idiot.